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Living with depression entry #2

22 Nov

I have not written on this blog for a little while. Well, I was much happier, anxious but happy for the past few days. I felt depressed at times but that stage passed too quickly. This is not an  of excuse for not writing. I am still creating a habit of writing daily.

Coming to the main point, depression is an fear, fear of something unknown. It can grab you in the midst of a happy moment. When I am happy, I suddenly feel something tightening inside me, like a loose knot tightening itself. I know I panic A LOT but this is not panic. Why would I panic when I am happy? It is so absurd. It is, but at the same time it is frightening too. The very thought of depression makes me scared.

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       I can control it. I know when it starts gripping me and I can stop it from making me feel crappy but certainly there are days when I am helpless. It is not easy. None of it is easy. It is a killer. You can slow the process but ultimately  it can kill you…. And I am still waiting for the knot to loosen….Waiting….

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1 Comment

Posted by on November 22, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

One response to “Living with depression entry #2

  1. Danial Ahmed

    December 7, 2014 at 11:54 am

    I go through this alot..like seriously alot. I have this enormously stupid fear that my uni will kick me out..for no apparent reason!

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